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I am so excited but nervose at the same time! It is my first day at high school and what if I get lost or don't make any friends. Omg I could come on at school what would I do! What if a teacher decides he/she does'ent like me and picks on me for the rest of my days there!!!!! Sudennly I get a massive pain in my stomach.
"MMMUUUUMMM" I scream down the stairs,
"WHAT"
"I don't want to go to school"
next thing I know I am crying, were did that come from still good timing! "It's going to be fine today remember you already have friends there. Now you are going end of"
"But Mum I can't"
What a great mum! I make sure that I get ready really slowly though until she has to drag me out of the house. There was I lot of screaming and a lot of scratching and that was that!....................
3 years later.
"Don't feel well mum" I whisper trying to sound really ill from my bed as my mum does her morning clean, "Don't be silly you look fine and you know you can't have any more time off"
"But I can't help it if I'm not well"
"you can if you're not ill like someone I know" As she says it she gives me the stare and I know I have got no chance.
I drag my clothes on and think about how much I hate my life, I have one friend and no boy friend! My one friend is called Lucy and she can be no help at all because she is always making out how good her boy friend Tom is and I will admitt it sometimes I get jealouse! But only because she is right he is a really nice guy. I need a boyfriend! We fffiiiinnnaaalllyy arrive at school and I drag my feet without saying good-bye to my mum she just doe'sent understand.
At school I am moody with everone as useual, what have I to be happy about? Sudennly I look down and realisie what I am wearing, my very old jumper with the massive rip in the back I ment to chuck years ago and my really mankey jeans that I had spilt cola all over last night! I stood up and look decusted with what I was wearing my-self, "SIT DOWN NOW, AMY WARLING" thats my name don't wear it out. "sorry sir" I mumbled under my breath feeling so imbarrassed realising sir had asked me a maths question 5 times over! "Amy what is 9X9"
"eeemmmm is it 81 sir or ....82"I feel un sure but well one was right because maths is my best subject and befour anyone says, I am not a geek I have Black hair and no freackles! Well I suppose, to people who don't know me I can come across as some sort of emo!. "Yes, Amy well I mean 81 is the right answer, well done" Sir sounds suprized but why I have always been good at maths.
At the end of maths I met up with Lucy and we headed for english when sudennly Lucy pulled me asside and said "Amy I know lets bunk off, we could go into town and get you out of them horrible clothes what were you thinking" I could'ent belive what I was hearing she sounded cool with it all, "what are you saying Lucy and don't ask about the clothes!"
"aww come on Amy I've got money we can go shopping" and with that she grabed me and we were heading out of the school, at this point I could not be bothered to argu and plus I wanted like hell to get out of these awful clothes.
When we got into town no-one said anything to us but they looked, I mean I had never done anything like this befour and well I did'ent feel certain it was the first time for Lucy. But she was right it did feel good getting out of school and I bought the most gourgeos out fit in the world. As I was paying Lucy was waiting out side and when I came out she was arguing with Tom, I mean proper arguing. Next thing Lucy storms off and when Tom look's up at me he smiles shout's Lucy and kisses me! It was strangely, awfuly nice, I did'ent push him away but I did'ent kiss him back.
Then I feel him scream and step back. Lucy had hold off him was beating him, as I said Tom was a decent bloke so he did'ent fight back but he pushed her off and walked away or father ran away, Lucy looked up at me who just stood there staring the whole time, gobsmacked.She walked off in the other direction I followed her but she can really move fast and I was on my own in town when I should of been in school, I was worried and started to panic so I went back and found Tom. I know I should of just got on a bus and gone home but when I panic you are talkling to a brick wall, me and Tom got on a bus and went home straight away anyway. All the way though I could swear he was smiling at me so I did it the unthinkable, I went in fr a kiss! He pulled away ammidiantly and started to shout at me but I was so shocked my-self I could'ent understand what he was saying.
Soon it was morning and as I raised my head from my cover's and I relive the nightmare! I could now hear exzactly what Tom was saying and it was'ent nice! "What are you doing you slut, I am with Lucy even if we argu how could you expect I would go out with you! Anyway I thought she was you'r best friend never mind that you'r only friend" Well something like and a lot more but he was right I am a complete jerk and no good friend, I mean what was I thinking how could Tom like me. Later that day I was just in the toilet thinking how horrible I was when, I felt a warm hand on my shoulder, I was jerked around and it was Lucy she gave me the most dirtiest look you ever saw. "How could you I am the only one who ever even pays any attention to you, just because it was you'r first kiss does'ent mean he like's you I mean he told you that when you tried to force you'rself on him you pig"
"I'm sorry I don't know what came over me"
"don't give me that you toke me man off me how can I look at hi the same after he kissed someone like you"
"how could you say that he kissed me"
"you we'rent fighting and he told me what you did so don't act innocent"
"I'M SORRY OK" I shout as I hit the mirror and it smashes and I don't stop I just let out all my anger I had been holding in for 3 yrs 2 monthes and 6 days! "STOP IT YOU LUUN" I don't listen and the next thing I know I am being dragged off by the head to her office for a serius conversation.
"SIT DOWN! Amy I am extreamly dissapointed in you young lady."
teachers they always say that and anyway what would she know is she in the position I'm in I can't be bothered arguing though, "sorry miss I don't know what came over me"
"Well it's not just behaveouir you'r slipping in now is it" She raises on e eyebrow and looks at me waiting for the answer and of course I would answer if I knew the answer. "Anyway that is for another time, when you'r parents are present. But that does not excuse you from vandalising school property, now is there something going on at home or are you being bullied it's ok you can tell me and I promise I won't tell anyone that is unless it is really seriouse!" Don't you just hate it when adults try to understand you!
"no miss I just lost control" I murmur under my breath. "it's ok if you don't want to tell me now, anyway you'r punishment for the vandalism is that you personaly will have to come to school on Saturday at 11:00 AND YOU WON'T BE LATE"
"But miss"
"No but miss now go to you'r next lesson and I will see you on Saturday"
Saturday morning....
"you'r leaving eairly for a Saturday arn't you dear" my mum says as I am on my way out the door, I can't be bothered with her on my back aswell so I just go. On my way guess who I bump into, Tom and Lucy. He has his arm round her and see's me then mouths "sorry" Lucy looks up at him and as soon as she realises she pushes him away and says loud enough for me to hear, "don't be sorry Tom she the syco slapper!"
"Lucy!"
"ow you know I'm right Tom so shut up and kiss me" I carry on walking looking proud I did'ent retaliate, I was wearing a little red top wich made me look very skinny and my skinney leg jeans with my red heels. but on the inside I felt like I was wearing my baggy black cloths I wear when I am depressed. Finnally I reach school and the head is there waiting for me, she looked down at her watch and shook her head, "You're 10 minuets late, not a good start" I don't say anything just carry on walking. "I have got some work to get on with in my office here is all the stuff you need and I will be in my office"
I just take off with the mop and other things you clean with, I was half way through when I heard a bang come from across the hall, I ignore it at first but I then hear some voices and decide to go and investigate.
As I look through the window I can see about 6 lads trashing a classroom and then hear the head coming down the hall I am too confused to know what to do but there was one boy who seemed to catch my attention, he was about my age with some baggy jeans and gothy t-shirt on, he had black, spikey hair and a REALLY CUTE FACE. "Amy get back to you're work" As she storms in they all make a dash for it, miss grabbes 2 boys but one got away the one lad she kept hold off was the really cute one and I just stood there gob smacked.
